Never underestimate the power you have to take your life in a new direction. – Germany Kent
Today is my Two Year Divorce Anniversary
Today is the two year divorce anniversary – yeah, the anniversary of my divorce being finalized. I’ve had such an emotional week, I didn’t even realize that the day was coming until I went on Facebook and saw one of the “on this day” memories. I have been so in my feelings about things going on in my life, I was completely distracted. This is actually the first time I’ve been at my desk since Tuesday morning…which was for like 5 minutes.
When my ex and I split up after 14 years, I thought my life was over. I have always had a strong sense of self, but after being a part of something for so long, I couldn’t remember who I really was. I was terrified of starting over. Terrified of being alone. Terrified of never finding love again, never being a part of something again.
It was a long, winding, twisting road, these last two years. But I’m doing just fine. Better than fine: I’m happy.
It wasn’t my choice to end the marriage, but to be totally honest, I’m THANKFUL that he did, because we weren’t happy. Now we ARE. Sometimes those big, life-changing decisions…are overwhelming. They’re usually overwhelming.
But they need to be made.
My ex took that photo a few years before we split up, and I laugh sometimes when I see it – I still have that bathing suit and it doesn’t even fit me anymore.
Like my old life.
Maybe it’s time to throw it away…