11 years ago , on June 21, 2008, this man, my daughter's father, took his own life.
He was my first love, the biggest love, as those first loves often are.
Most days, we are fine. We've grieved and we've healed, mostly. But sometimes, like on days like today, it still hurts.
Losing a person you love to suicide casts a shadow on the rest of your life. Every event, every momentous occasion...you feel their absence. He should have been there to watch her graduate. Should have seen her senior photos, her prom photos.
Should have been there for me to cry to when my husband left me. Should have been there when she decided to join the Navy. And he's not and it was 100% his choice...that is why suicide is so hard for the people they leave behind - because it's THEIR DECISION to not be there anymore.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It's reckless and it destroys the lives of the people who love them, in big ways, small ways, unimaginable ways.
It's not the only way out. If you think it is? Call the Suicide Prevention Hotline. Please. 800-273-8255
“The person who completes suicide, dies once. Those left behind die a thousand deaths, trying to relive those terrible moments and understand … Why?” - Unknown