Thinking of You

Sometimes I am overwhelmed by the little things

I struggle to maintain my constant composure

I fight to hold it all together

and then a soft breeze, a faint smell, a quiet melody

will tear my world apart and send me reeling

Around every corner

lies a memory threatening to invade

When the sky is clear and the air is warm

I stare off into space and remember

I can smile

I can breathe

While I am lying still, late at night

pleading for sleep, groggy, half conscious

I envision what happened

The scene plays out in my minds eye and I shake with sobs

Knowing she is gone, she is no more

I feel the full impact of what I have lost when I am alone in the silence of night

I can take no refuge, there is no escape

But the slow, dull healing of time