I hit the proverbial wall today with regard to blogging.
I don’t know what happened, exactly…You know how sometimes you feel something so acutely, but still can’t find the words to explain it? That is how I felt today.
I felt like maybe I should stop blogging, that I was wasting my time.
I think I know why this happened now. Because I was taking myself, and this blog, much too seriously. Back in December when I made the decision to turn Rebel Chick’s Journey into a real blog – a sort of business – I knew that I might start to feel differently about it. I knew there was a risk that once my blog traffic started to matter (as more than just a nice reassurance that people were reading my blog), it might cause me stress. It really shouldn’t, because I am not blogging to make a living. My husband makes enough to pay the bills and it’s not like our power is going to get shut off if I don’t make an income.
It’s not about the money.
It all boils down to something very basic and silly.
My freaking self esteem.
When I feel like no one cares about something that I do – like blogging – I feel like maybe I shouldn’t care either.
Well you know what? Screw that!
So, from now on, things are going to be less serious and more fun.
Starting with this photo of me when I was about 5 months old.
Had a good laugh?
Ah….the days when muffin tops and cankles didn’t matter…
PS…my mom saved that bikini and still has it tucked away somewhere to will to me when she passes away. Like I will be able to wear it! ROFL